When I was 23, I was finally diagnosed with Depression. My boyfriend had dumped me and I was overly distraught. That was the year that I sat down and held the pills from a bottle of vicodin in my hand and I was going to take them to commit suicide. I called my sister to tell her that she could have all my worldly possessions and she managed to talk me out of it. I called my father to tell him what I had almost done and he paid for my ticket to visit him in the Valley. The trip helped me through that tough time in my life, but it wasn't to be that last tough time in my life.
After seeing numerous doctors, and seeing numerous commercials on TV on Bipolar Disorder, I took a test and took it to my doctor. He glanced at the test and told me that he had thought that I had Bipolar Disorder for a while now. Although I knew the truth, I was in shock. I was 31 years old and pregnant with my second child. It was not the time to find out news such as this.
That next year was hell. The pregnancy had made my Bipolar worse and I experienced hallucinations and a wide range of emotions. I was manic, depressed and suicidal. It was the worst year of my life.
After we changed my medication to Lithium I finally began to feel better. It worked for me. The hallucinations began to go away and I wasn't so sad anymore. I finally began to feel like myself. The medication didn't take it all away. I still had small episodes here and there, but at least I had some relief.
Then we added the Geodon, an antipsychotic, and the episodes happened less and less. Today I continue to have small episodes of depression, but the manic episodes are a thing of the past. That's why I decided to try Michael's Super Body Super Brain workout. It is my hope that the work out will help dispel the rest of my episodes so I don't have to over medicate myself. I have hope for my future.
About the Author: Cristina C. Fender, 34, is rapidly becoming an expert on Bipolar Disorder. She has been researching Bipolar Disorder and blogging about her own experiences for several years. At age 21 she was diagnosed with depression and saw psychiatrists for over ten years before she was correctly diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I. Her vision for writing is to inform and educate the public about mental illness. Feel free to Email Cristina a comment or a question.Click here to Subscribe in a Reader.
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